What is THIS?

I feel like I am lying on a carpet of a dream,

But, it isn’t a dream, I hear others talk and scream

To say I am induced with a drug to be crazy

I find myself stable, not so lazy

Then, what is this? 

Your absence from my sight is an injurious pain 

That numbs the usual tune of my brain 

When you are next to me my dear,

I find meaning in being so close and near

So, what is this?

I envy you for being with others

The eyes of my heart get clouded and it bothers

Although our line of living is separate and clear

Yet my heart beats with pain without any fear

And I wonder, what is this? 

Sometimes, I don’t want you with me here 

As I fear you would say you don’t want to hear 

I know the path of our closeness is so rough 

Yet I want to tread on without fear, as it is not enough 

That makes me think, what is this?

When you are just out of the house

Wearing that elegant blue blouse

Over the slim body and take a walk

I want to join your cold hand openly and talk

And let people watch, what is this? 

Every single bead of our moment 

Is archived in my heart that I really can’t 

Erase to start something new and make ours lost 

For such kind will never happen at any cost 

It’s special for me to reflect what is this?

To describe you, the words don’t have the capacity

The lyricist would fail to compose on their own ability

As charming as you are, so is your closeness  

Which I miss and enjoy, so shall I confess

But I know you may think, what is this? 

People may make fun and as abnormal, you may find 

Because it might or not have occurred to you of such kind

To me, it doesn’t make me surprised and wonder

As your absence rather makes my heart grow fonder 

Please don’t say “Are u crazy”, and shout what is this?

Although destiny has pushed us to a separate room

When met before, our relations have failed to bloom

Yet with the destiny’s pity hand and heart

We will craft our relation into one best form of an art

And let destiny itself wonder, WHAT IS THIS?